I'm searching for the answer to why I’m not searching – by watching others search.

Perhaps my incomprehension is shifting to a fearful inclination to find out more.

Not directly. Still by watching.

Love and romance are becoming more and more relevant among the people around me. Everyone aspires to the same thing. Even my 14 year-old-cousin has grown up and is experiencing his first true love. It seems that some things are supposedly for more adult people, and I feel distant from them. I realized that I have never looked for love or even thought about it, although this usually happens in the early teen years. I'm neutral.